Missing

  • Missing

I awaken to find myself missing…

Missing the comfort of not knowing…

Just how lonely life can be.

Just how deafening the absence of voice can be.

Just how chilling the absence of touch can be.

It is entirely human to take for granted that unconditional love and support will always be.

That the mundane day to day will be everlasting.

That there will always be another conversation, reassuring touch, glance, gesture.

Missing the ease of conversation, the joy of laughter, the contentment of true connection.

Missing the calls to check in, the quiet moments, the shared obligations and routines.

Missing the bond the carried us through good times and bad.

Missing the sacred gift of being seen, valued and accepted, exactly as you are, with an open heart and mind.

The longing so powerful.

The remembering bittersweet.

The missing a companion forevermore.

 

4 Comments

  1. Mary Keane July 29, 2018 at 4:12 pm

    Jennifer, I came across your Transformative Grief site when I was exploring online grief support just a few months ago. I have been so very grateful for each one of your posts for they have been so comforting and have given me words, feelings and guidance to walk through this great loss. My beloved husband died February 16 with a profuse brain bleed in his cerebellum taking out his brain stem within an hour. The shock is still with me. Your Missing thoughts were exactly what I was trying to express. The loss of feeling loved, the one person you trusted with your heart and soul, the one who knew you and loved who you were….oh, the yearning for one more moment of life together. I have been scared or afraid of what I do not know and have been struggling with that vulnerability but I think I am finding some enlightenment on these feelings…that “there will always be another conversation, reassuring touch, glance, gesture”, yes that is what was taken in an instant from me. He was so healthy, vigorous-worked out every day since I knew him in his 20’s. He died at 76…way to early. Thank you for you gift and sharing it with all who seek you out.

  2. Jennifer Stern, LISW July 29, 2018 at 4:24 pm

    Thank you. I am so very sorry for the sudden death of your husband. It is so discombobulating to lose someone in an instant. Thank you for your kind words. I am grateful you are finding validation and some comfort in the Transformative Grief website. Do you know about the Transformative Grief Facebook page? I wish you continued strength and courage as you take each new day as it comes. Take care.

  3. Diane July 29, 2018 at 5:54 pm

    Jennifer, Each article that you have written has
    connected with me as I continue on this
    grief journey. Reflecting on Your words and topics of thought, has helped me to continue
    to move forward. Thank you!

  4. Jennifer Stern, LISW July 30, 2018 at 2:15 am

    Thank you Diane. I am so grateful to know that my words have helped you to continue to move forward. Take care, Jen

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